||[Oct. 30th, 2006|12:21 am]
So, this january I'm getting out of the valley for good.|
The valley I've hated for so long.
The valley I've longed to escape from. I really can't wait.
I'm moving to sacramento with Jack. I'll be going to school up there and most importantly, making music with jack again. I can't wait. It's almost surreal, I've been here for 17 years of my life. I've cultivated so many great, triumphant, terrible and painful memories, it's odd to think that I'm going off to do the same in a bigger, more exciting place.
alot can change in two years.
even more can change in four.
Change is the only thing that has ever been constant in life, yet sometimes I refuse to go along with it.
Not this time.
a certain somone has come back into my life. Somone I've had history with now for 7 years. I'm really excited to see where this goes. We both agree that it's something that could be very nice to say the least, but there is always an air of doubt in my life. I don't really know, I can't place it. All I know is that it makes me feel much more lonely than not having anyone who feels that way for me. It's like a kid knowing where the presents are and not being able to reach them. But I suppose I'm better off than I was a year and a half ago.
I need to get a pump for presta valves, I want to ride now that the weather is getting nicer.
lately my life has been shrouded in nostalgia. I can't figure out why, there's just been alot of reflection upon "the good ol' days.." I've always hated nostalgia and yet I've always been such a sentimental goon. Hypocracy is my middle name, I suppose.
I'm hoping that Ryan, Matt, Jack, and I can go to ensenada this winter, that would be keen.
I spoke to julissa last night and it was the cutest conversation we've had in a long time. I'm so glad she's decided to quit doing the drugs. I was really worried about her for so long but I'm hoping that she'll be ok.
big deal, praying to a god I've openly denounced.
I'll do anything, just let my best friends be safe.